thats just how we roll

ahah, yep. Smoooth =D ahah. or smoothie =D which i am now allowed =]=]=] yes, i am OFF that silly diet thingy and now am allowed to gradually add in the foods they took away from me, how good is that?! Ive added in wheat, that went down well, probably cuz if it didnt i wouldnt have a clue cuz i had gastro and the pain from that was enormas.. ahah

Anyway, syeah. I spent most of yesterday in hospital cuz of the stupid gastro, which is pretty much gone now, but anywayz.  And when i did get home all i did was watch TV and sleep. what a good life i lead.. ahah apart from the sick part.. but oh well  =DDD

Umm, yeah. I go to mill valley on sunday, im SOO exciteddd a) cuz its Mill Valley, and it basically just rocks and b) cuz ash ash is leaving meeh a lettera.. with a challenge.. which im hoping is NOT gonna b to get my ranch hand.. cuz ive already set myself that challenge.. ahah wether or not i can do it is another question, i failed my test last time and stuff… which sucked! But yeah.. HI ASH! not that you read my blogs. ahah.. but you might.. syeah.

Umm, dads car got written off this week so YAY for that, were all excited cuz we get a new car =DD but at the same time.. its not all excitedness cuz my parents keep fighting and stuff. i dno, its all weird like in our house atm.. i cant wait to go to mill valley, out of this madness! syeah. That about me for the weeek! As i do, im going to leave you with a quote/saying:

“so were a little bit crazy, thats just how WE ROLL”

we dnt wait cuz we know them

at the bar six shacks just beginning! ahahah.. i love p!nk.. even tho i dno if thats even the line.. ahah.

Syeah.. i went to the city with my nana today.. That was funessito. We took the train in =D i love the train.. its funny with its shwooosh.. and then.. stop.. in the middle of the tracks -.- lol. but it started back again in like 5 mins so all was good.. i was like :O plz plz dnt stiop HERE of all places.. pleaaassee not HERE! Cuz it was all close like and stuffffffff

And yeah. we went to fed square.. i used to HATE that place… but im actually beginning to like it.. =D not like i like the arts center or the yarra.. but like i like nanas place. i like it.. but its not somewhere id go like.. everyday or whatever.. i love the people.. the place is alright sorta thing.. ahah im rambling on.. ahah syeah.. we had some sourdough toast and nan had a cappichino there.

Umm.. then we went to the vic markets… the fish section smells like.. HORRIBLE.. and so does the deli and meat sections.. but the clothing sections just smell like smoke, plastic and clothes.. =D H.EM.GEE i got a hamburger phone, u know.. like the one in Juno! wooooo.. its actually works too… i got my first phone call on it! ahah.. was a tele marketer.. ahahah but yeah.. that market is boring now.. i used to love it.. not anymoreee.

Umm, yeah. When we finally got outta there.. we went to the .. well… where did we go? ahah… i think we went and got some lunch.. YEAH we did.. ahah.. NO wait.. we went material shopping (like.. for the skirt im gonna make) gosh that was painful on the feet.. ahah i wore my mums high helled boots.. BIG mistake.. and i mean big cuz they were BIG.. ahah.. syeah.. was fun enough.. i learnt quite a bit about skirtt making and diff materials todaiiiiii

Yeah, after we got all the materials.. we went and had lunch.. in the food court in the middle of the yarra bank thinggyyyy…. (the river bank.. not a place with money.. like it cuud be) OMG.. tthere was the CUTEST english guy EVER.. eheh. we looked at each other.. and omg.. he was SOO cute.. i almost melted.. ahah.. but yeah.. i didnt say hi or anything cuz thatd b weird… ahah and yeah.. i got my shippies and ate and stuff with nana.

Yeah.. we went down to the arts center after lunch =D that was GREAT i was speaking to the desk guy about getting involved with MTC and stuff. =D was a great chat with him and the other chick.. it was GREAAAT! so ove found a few cources and stuff so that should be GREEAAAAAAT! and yeah.

we went home on the train and i crashed in pain on nans couch and now im all sore and stuff.. great way to end the dai eh? ill leave you once again with a saying:

“Love: and incurable state of mind, cureable by marrage”

“legs”

naww. i miss iOTA as frankie… i mean. i can’t watch tim curry cuz his cast with him aint good enough 4 me.. ahha.. no gareth, or thomas.. or mini man :’( i iz missing rocky horror

Anywayz, i havn’t made a post in so long so im going to make a post now. cuz i love you all so much! So yeah, ahah. I have been doing my rehersals with the show and stuff. so thats all been fun and stuff.. i mean.. i never knew how hard reading and learning parts and everything was until this. we have 73 songs in the show! like.. i mean.. what am i complaining about? im only in like 16 of them.. but o wells… thats ALOT of music to learn !!! ahah its all messed up.. theres one point.. (in the seussical part) that i go straight from suprano to tenor.. ahah.. thats a MASSIVE change in pitch.. ahah its gonna b a challenge but o wellz =D

So.. school FINALLY finished today.. shame it had to fnish on such a bad note.. oh wells… the atart of the day was fun =D setting up chairs in the mpc is ACTUALLY fun when its to “if you seeks amy” ahah.. was funny.. i was like “YES! I LOVE THIS SONG” when it came on.. and the helper outterer guy was all like “is that appropriate?” and im like.. well…. if you dont say it slowly and just think of it as “if you seek amy” then its COMPLETELY appropriate.. and walked off.. leaving him puzzled.. ahaha

So, yeah. The rest of the day was pretty bad and stuff. i mean.. it wasnt HORRIBLE but it wasnt good. so.. OH there was ONE good part of the rest of the day.. we watched a movie and ate hot chips that our teacher bought us.. so that was yumii and relaxing….. but that was the ONLY part like that.. jap was a bit like that.. but i cuudnt eat what they were eating…

OMG.. im listening to fanfare “dont dream it, be it” from rocky.. awww.. its all sad like.. but yeah. OMG jakehh sent me some of the pre show tunes.. omg.. they were awesome.. cuz thats when the phantoms came out.. awwnessito.. i misseth themz.. mini man was the bestest.. he gave me adivsenessito.. =D but then again.. the hottest was gareth and the most involved was thomas.. ahaha.. awww. mr phantom he rocked.. even tho he tryed to eat me.. ahaha

so yeah…. i havnt done much else since i last posted… so yeah.. ill leave you with yet another quote

“dont dream it, be it!”

torn

The title says it all; I’m torn. She appologised.. but this dumb, stupid, messed up heart of mine says not to forgive her. The same dumb heart that told me that i need her! I’m just torn, i need a shoulder to cry on, but theres no shoulder there.

But anyway, today was was alright. Lots of revision classes for test at the moment. Atleast senior school actually makes sure the stuff we are learning sinks in to our heads instead of not caring. Oh well.

But yeah, i dont know anything at the moment, not even what to write, so im just going to leave this here with a saying.

“Love isn’t finding a perfect person. It’s seeing an imperfect person, perfectly” ♥

your just a sad song

with nothing to say about a life long wait for a hospital stay. I feel like that songs about me atm. Ive spent so much time in hospital since i hit highschool. i dno why thought.. like.. i ALWAYS had good health through primary school.. but as soon as i hit highschool.. nup.. that good luck was all over.

I had a blood test and an ECG today. Stupid chest pains.. mum thinks its just muscle pain.. i agree cuz i dno what else it could be.. so yeah.. i came home from the doctors and slept.. so that was all good..

“you have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad. Love what youve got and remember what you had. Learn to forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change, things go wrong. Just remember, LIFE GOES ON!”

that verse/saying thing.. it almost makes me cry at the moment.. life goes on.. indeed.. and you shouldnt forget.. im just so.. i dno what i am.. im sad and confused about my old best friend.. i dont know what to do with myself anymore.. i really dont.. do i move on? ive tryed that.. it dosnt work.. i also tryed talking to her.. that def! didnt work.. i dno.. i may as well just die right now.. but i still have my other best friend ash.. he keeps me going at the moment. im so glad to have him..

so yeah, i only got like 10 mins of maths today i was annoyed cuz i was ACTUALLY getting it today.. and i wasnt bored for once.. but yeah.. if ur in pain.. it needs to be dealt with i guess.

grr at everything

like seirously, does the school WANT me to go and kill someone wity their whole “we found a book of your in the locker room.. you have to carry your books around all day and OH by the way.. you have mr wilson for one of your classes today. if u ever THINK about talking you can have an automatic detention with him at lunchtiime!

AHH! im so OVER school.. oh.. and did i mention miss janik held us in for 10 minutes at lunch? plu an extra one becuase i turned around to check something which in her eyes was “talking” and so if i am in bad moods i cant eat.. and that put me in a bad mood.. so i didnt have lunch. and to make matters worse, when im pissed off all i can think about is bad shit… and the bad shit atm u ask? my best friend.. well.. ex best friend since last night hates me.. and everything about me.. and cuudnt give a fluff if i died right here right now! im so over thiu.. wtf did i do to deserve it? like seriously..

so.. i was this close to walking out of class today during pastarol (the one we had mr wilson for) the only good part about it was having a go at mr wilson without him knowing it.. GO my essays! thats all i have to say.. but seirously.. i was about to walk out… i cant stand school anymore. i seriously wish i didnt have to go.. ill b homeschooled or something.. i mean… so what?! there r no people there.. what do i care? people suck.. why r there people around anyway/ like.. yesh. im over EVERYTHING!

Isnt it sad

when people you know become people you knew. You can just walk right past someone as if they were never a big part of yuor life. You used to be able to talk for hours and now you cant even look at them.

Ive come to realise how true this verse is, and also how sad. My best friend dosnt even realise i exist anymore. I guess shes kind of not my best friend anymore then, but its a really sad realisation considering how long we were friends. Its kind of depressing. I dont know how to let go, but i know i have to. What else can i do?

Anyway, off that subject. Today was so average, like nothing interesting actually happened. It was annoying actually. Like.. the on day i want nothing to happen… something happens.. but the one day i actually WANTED something interesting to happen.. nothing did.

We had drama, double, so start off the day. How exciting. NOT.. we had our performances.. i hated it. I hated the script and everything about it, but i stuck with it because i had to and i had to support my friend and make her feel good about herself. Like, the scirpt was GREAT, but im just not into that sort of thing. But yeah. i had 2 costume changes. 4 including the one out of my uniform and then i had like minus 5 minutes to get out of the costume and down to singing. where i only had a 10 minute lesson anywayz

Then we had science and jap. Science we learnt about the big band theory, and just wrote stuff from the board the whole time. and after that we had jap and we watched “Sky High” not a bad move.. but i was getting things thrown at me the whole time so i was pretty peeved by the end of it.

Pastarol was alright, i didnt really pay attention and yeah. Umm. english! GAH! i just wish we could.. like for more than one day every 2 weeks NOT have english. I got told off 4 dancing.. then                   and yeah. It was all annoying and i dnt wannah do engliish anymore. silly teachers.. making us do subjects we dnt wanna do.. GAH!

so yeah. my plans 4 tonight.. are to relax. anybody wannah join the relaxation? lol.

kirabiyaka

apparently it dosnt mean gay but it does mean pretty! ahahahaha im always wrong rnt i? lol but yeah… garasu hade, kirabiyaka! ahaha… aweosmeness

So yeah..today was the most drop dead boring day.. i mean.. annelyce entertained me during maths but that was all englush… boring.. music.. i fell asleep.. ahaha… but yeah.. i had fun sleeping so it was all good. this is going to be the shortest post ever cuz im so tired. gnight and i love you all

without love

life is like my big break and larangitis! aahahaha zac effron is so funny in that line.. ahaha his face is priceless. it be aweismenesss

anywayz.. I GOT A SOLO SONG! WOOOOOOO! im so excited. this is my chance to show the theatre world what im made of. im gonnah have to shine like a star and put in a million and one effort.. woo.. u all better be coming now! ahaha

so thats all exciting. im getting used to myself now =] im happy about that.. cuz if i cuudnt live with myself it wouldnt be very happy life now, would it? but yeah. thats all good.

we went into emerald today. i saw some parts that had, had fire go thru it.. it was devistating.. but it was alright cuz it was only trees burnt and stuff so it was OK.

and yeah.. long wekends over.. school tomorrow so okay.. i have to come down from my cloud of happiness and go onto my worked up cloud of homework.

its all the same

bi, gay, straigh, lesbian. it dosnt matter at the mardi gras. i love that fact.. its awesome. i watched the 2002 and 1999 mardi gras parades on tv today.. it was preeeetttyyyyyy gooooooood! =D

so yeah…. that was pretty much my day.. mardi gras.. i SOO wannah b on the rocky horror float! how AWESOME would that be? like seriously.. ahaha… and gareth was in it =D =D =D but thats the 2009.. D= so tears…

so yeah… that was my day.. as exciting as it may seem.. have ffun kiddies and remember to use a condom!